Taxi

Another song that brings me to a blue mood, the soundtrack for "Taxi". Listen to the longer version, it certainly tells you the mood more clearly than the tv version. Some of my friends are in dismay. I'm sending them happy thoughts.

Sore hari

It has been a while since I last felt so at home and relaxed. This feeling can be easily be created by the right song. Andien made that feeling appear beautifully.

Rida sita dewi

Nothing they can't cure. I'm listening to "datanglah tuan" with cheerful mood, saved from my mood swings.

staring adversity in the face

And beat it with a broom. Did i know what for?

Site for the blind

Yayasan Mitra Netra:

The girl

So the girl finally went out with the troubled guy, and she apologized to the nice guy. I'm thinking, why in the world did that girl went and faced the nice guy after hurting his heart? That girl just lost my pity. I hate her.
[girlmore girls]

The girl

To the girls who keep making the same mistakes by being too nice to bad boys, I pity them. To the guys behind them, pushed their trusts and kept on waiting for those girls to come back, I pity them, too. I hope they're both okay, I really feel sorry for them.

Something to read

Eternally Grateful by Doreen Bell-Dotan:

Reaching out

I reached out for an old friend today. She's in Japan, I think. I'm hopping to her from her again. It's frustrating to read her name as an older sister of a 70 years old japanese teacher who got killed 15/17 years ago and whose case can't be brought to court by some japanese crime law.

Talk about an old turtle

AUCKLAND
A TURTLE WHICH EXPLORER CAPTAIN COOK GAVE TO THE KING OF TONGA IN
1777 DIED YESTERDAY. IT WAS NEARLY 200 YEARS OLD.
THE ANIMAL, CALLED TU'IMALILA, DIED AT THE ROYAL PALACE GROUND IN
THE TONGAN CAPITAL OF NUKU, ALOFA.
THE PEOPLE OF TONGA REGARDED THE ANIMAL AS A CHIEF AND SPECIAL
KEEPERS WERE APPOINTED TO LOOK AFTER IT. IT WAS BLINDED IN A BUSH FIRE
A FEW YEARS AGO.
TONGA RADIO SAID TU'IMALILA'S CARCASS WOULD BE SENT TO THE
AUCKLAND MUSEUM IN NEW ZEALAND.
Reuters, 1966

Night cruises

..and we would go on these night cruises, meeting our loves. I let her sit by the windows, carrying her stuffed doll, getting excited and jumpy. It was an ordinary journey, but she made it enjoyable.
..and we would arrive there all dirty, carrying dust in our hopes. But we would fly. We would fly together. And I would never wonder what true friends would do to each other, because she'd done it all. For me.
I wonder if she's already asleep.

Rida Sita Dewi

At night, a trio of female singer with slow songs always slay me. I am thankful for what I have now, but also don't have that much time to just sit around and ponder. It is such a lovely night to do it, though.

Meanings sold seperately

On our way to sleep, my Dedet and I thought about how miserable her college years were, being with so little friends and so hostile environment. In her nuance, I succeeded in perceiving mine to a neutral one, being one without any emotional meaning. It's odd, because it wasn't like that at all. I had many meaningful experience back then, and my general perception could not explain it. Our little chat brought me an enlightenment, that our experience is meaningless, unless we add meaning to it. Something happened is on thing, what we think of it happened is what we treasure.

Sea Turtle

These few days I felt myself drifting in the middle of classes. This trimester just begun, yet it has taken all of my energy just to keep up with it. I feel afraid and exhausted. I'm part afraid of my performance this trimester, but moreover I'm afraid of my career.

There are 3 kinds of people

People who make things happen
People who see things happen
People who wonder what happened

Menjadi perempuan

Menjadi Perempuan
Teddy Budiwan
05/11/05 12:12:53
Kenapa menjadi perempuan itu lebih berat? Perempuan menstruasi, harus mengalami sakit sekali sebulan. Perempuan hamil, membawa dan memberi makan anaknya sembilan bulan lamanya. Melahirkannya, perempuan bermain diantara hidup dan mati, terluka badannya. Setelah melahirkan, perempuan harus menyusui anaknya, siap kapanpun diinginkan. Ketergantungan anak kecil pada ibunya jauh melebihi pada ayahnya.
Perempuan bangun lebih dahulu dari lelaki. Perempuan tidur setelah lelaki. Perempuan lebih capek dari lelaki, perempuan memikirkan lebih banyak hal dari lelaki, perempuan mengurus dirinya dengan usaha yang lebih tinggi dari lelaki.
Lelaki, melihat ini, menjadi ingin mengurangi beban perempuan. Ia ingin perempuan hanya bersenang-senang, hanya mengkonsumsi saja. Lelaki menjadi bergairah untuk berusaha, lelaki menjadi termotivasi. Anak kecil pada lelaki tersingkirkan, karena ada kata baru di kamusnya, “Prioritas.” Lelaki mendahulukan kepentingan perempuan dan anaknya.
Lelaki melihat dirinya sendiri. Tidak puas pada dirinya, ia ingin yang lebih baik pada anaknya. Ia memacu anak kecil yang tidak mengerti apa-apa. Anak marah karena disinggung masa kecilnya. Anak tidak sabar ingin pergi dari rumah.
Perempuan melihat rumah yang sepi, menjadi sedih. Perempuan menjadi tua, lelaki menjadi muda. Perempuan dan lelaki menjadi sendiri dalam lamunan. Lelaki melihat perempuan bertanya kenapa perempuan sedih. Perempuan melihat lelaki bertanya kenapa terlalu memikirkan diri sendiri.
Kenapa menjadi perempuan itu lebih berat? Kehidupan berputar mengelilingi perempuan. Melihat perempuan, lelaki menjadi kagum, ingin membantunya. Lelaki ingin melindungi, lelaki ingin melakukan sesuatu untuk perempuan.
Kenapa menjadi perempuan itu lebih berat?

Missing a friend

There once was a close friend, a very flexible friends. We conquered the world, we ventured the unchartered, we went places together, she showed me my music.
I would like to remember her friendship today.

One to love

Malam ini aku sangat terpengaruh dan kagum pada kekuatan cinta. Aku harap semua orang di luar malam ini dikaruniai cinta yang memenuhi hidup mereka.
May love fill your love, all of you.

American Splendor

This is the first time I have a positive energy from the movie "American Splendor". Sure, you have a longing in life, but nothing should possibly worth punishing your whole life.
Am I cured?

Indonesiaku

Aku sudah bosan mengeluh saja pada keadaan Indonesiaku. Tidak ada yang bisa kulakukan untuk memperbaiki keadaan Indonesiaku dan aku sedih. Mungkin aku memang seharusnya tutup mulut saja, dan membiarkan Indonesiaku dihancurkan oleh penduduknya sendiri. Sepertinya itu memang kebudayaan bangsa ini, membiarkan yang berani, yang membela kepentingan yang banyak, mati dimakan norma.
Kita lihat besok, apakah ada yang peduli besok hari pendidikan?